About to Start Homeopothy AGAIN

So I have taken a huge break from homeopothy. For a variety of reasons, in the fall, it was because I was trying the seizure meds, and I didn't want to do both at the same time, so I could truly decipher what was helping. Then...... it just became one thing after another.... for a while we didn't have the extra cash, the holidays were a time of being strapped. Jason definitely has some questions about whether it really does anything or not..... but, I figure it's so inexpensive, and it seems to have helped before....... so I have decided to keep trying. I just received the package today. Overall, it seems ben has been doing better over the last few months. We took him off Dairy, and his constipation has gotten way better..... he had a while of getting backed up again, so we emptied him out with Miralax, and now he's pooping on his own, and his behavior certainly has gotten better since he's pooped... but still, he's kinda in a downward phase. During his, "good time", he started answering questions like, "What did you get for Christmas...... I think he answered something Micah got, but still, he answered a question. He seems to be doing that more and more, which is awesome. But lately, the last few weeks, he seems more, "Autistic" then ever, in his own world, kinda freaking out and being hard to "convince" to do certain things. He has been running away from his teachers at school, and seems to need almost constant "stimulation" in order to stay still. Squeezes, and foot and hand massages have increased. Today, we went on to see a musical show as a field trip at his school. Ben sat between me and one of his teachers, and constantly requested squeezes, clapping, needing to move and be stimulated in some way. Definitely makes me think, maybe a "stimulant" in the form of an ADHD drug might help. He has also been an EATING machine. He wants to eat non stop, and even though the choices we give him are generally healthy, (protein bars, almonds, Almond butter and Honey sandwiches, Whole grain chips, fruit and soy milk, he wants to eat constantly, and trying to get him out of the kitchen and away from his desire is almost impossible. As a result he is gaining more and more weight. It makes me so sad to look at his rolly polly body..... I feel so helpless in this area. We control what goes in his mouth, but when he's desperate for food, it take's ALL our energy to move him towards something else, and it usually doesn't work until he get's what he wants. I am worried about it for sure.

I think this recent downward spiral started when Ben made his way up to the non LCD TV in the kids play room, and had another seizure. I feel like I stopped the TV staring midway, but it was too late. I saw him doing it and screamed at him to stop. He took a few steps back and then started to seize. It wasn't as big as the others, and I almost feel like he didn't get a full one, like he wanted to, or was meant to in a sense. He didn't empty his bowels, and he did not seem to improve afterwards like he did before. If anything, he has seemed worse. He has been backed up again. We took him off Melatonin a few months back, because we just didn't feel like he needed it anymore, since he wasn't really napping during the day. We were also concerned that it could be contributing to the seizures. But seeing him have another seizure even without the melatonin influence, and the fact that he has been back to his crazy at night having a hard time settling down to bed phase, we started him back on it. I'm not 100% sure of the correlation, but it seems like he has been backed up again since then, and we have been giving him Miralax every few weeks to clean him out. He's been crazy. There has never been any link to melatonin and constipation before, but then again, Ben is a mystery.

So here we are again.... starting with the daily dropper, the first packet we will do will be to clear for the miralax he has had recently, then we will do some vaccines. We have not even gotten to his birth yet, and after that we will have lots of things to do. So...... here we go again..... I worry about the healing reactions, as they have always been a bit hard and tend to be on the destructive side, but hopefully he will come out better in the end. I will try to update as we go along. OH...... and, we are getting him a dog in about a week! We are going to train it to help him, and be his best friend, hopefully this will be a huge help to him also.

Blessings,
Willow