Not good. :-(

Okay..... I don't think this med is good anymore. :-( I'm really sad about it. It seems like this happens with every Med we try. He's aggressive. He does his eye thing not fricken stop. I'm assuming it's a Tic, since it actually has gotten worse on the seizure meds. He's hurting me. He literally goes out of his way to pinch me, or kick me, and I don't know why. He thinks it's funny. I'm worried about him alone with Micah for sure. Elijah is always saying that Medicine is stupid cuz it makes Ben angry. There's no fucking winning. Sorry, I know its not like me to swear, but sometimes I just need to. His clarity has been compromised since school started, cuz he's had a bad cold. So I don't even know if that is still there. Maybe there is a different kind to try? But that will probably just make him a zombie. The one they originally tried to give us, they asked, "Does this child have ADHD like symptoms? Oh good, it will calm him down" Just code word for, "it will turn your child into a zombie, but hey, that's okay, cuz he's just too difficult to deal with anyway. I'll take loving, adorable, difficult ADHD Ben, over zombie Ben without little tiny Seizures. It's a battle....... for sure.

Willow